The stars lean down to kiss you,
and i lie awake I miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

Cos i'll doze off safe and soundly,
But i'll miss your arms around me.
i'll send a post card to you dear
'cause i wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly.
The silence isn't so bad,
Till i look at my hands and feel sad.
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
though i haven't slept in two days.
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night.

Waist deep in thought,
Because when i think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as i blink,
I'll think of you, tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter.
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And i'll forget the world that i knew,
But i swear i won't forget you.

Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past.
I'd whisper in your ear.
Oh darling i wish you were here.



I'm glad things are fine,
but for how long?



IVAN!

handwritten @ 9:00 PM

Dear god,
The only thing i ask of you is to hold her when im not around.
When im much too far away.
We all need the person who can be true to you
But, i left her when i found her.
And now i wish i'd stayed.
Cos im lonely and im tired
Im missing you again, Oh no.
Once again.


Well some search, never finding a way.
Before long, they waste away.
I found you. something told me to stay.
I gave in , to selfish ways.
How i miss someone to hold, when hope begins to fade.

Cos i'm lonely, I'm tired and i'm missing you again.
Oh no.
Once again.



IVAN!

handwritten @ 5:41 PM

I'm gonna stay positive in aspects of my life, my career, my family.
But i think i've decided to give up on what i can't get, you.
It's gonna be so irritating to you to have someone like me sticking to you.
well, this is to get me off your back.

maybe i should concentrate on my trainings and getting my degree.
you'd do well. no worries.
probably, my turn to say.. you deserve better.
I'm sick of relationships and love.
Hopefully i don't start to hate.

Going back to camp.
This is gonna suck. seriously.
Robbing of my 1 extra day of rest.
Oh well...

Officially the worst book out i've ever had.
totally crap.

I hope you understand why.
I simply dont wanna be a irritant.
But i can still wait, Silently..
Takecare.


IVAN!

handwritten @ 5:26 PM

Guess who's back?
Okay, i know not many people are reading. almost nobody.
but its just almost..

Good good good great great greatest weekend / bookout.
it was also the longest.
it was worth the wait.

Im gonna collect my rifle on tuesday ! yay!
excited. bmt is gonna be so fun. i hope.
bu when i go outfield, im gonna miss you.
):
Takecare of yourself alright?
Study hard and play hard.
Dont keep play play play only.

Im going to become stronger.
And im going to eat alot of rice and become abit fat.
Im abit too skinny.
No figure. hahahha.


One love, this is the way we found.
One love, even though they'll let you down.
One love, nobody's perfect now.
One love, dont let that hold you down.
One love, lets stick together now.
One love, we gotta stand our ground.
One love, its easy to believe in.
One love, believe in you and me.
ONE LOVEEEEEEE!







Book in time in like 6 hours or so.
TAKECARE!

handwritten @ 7:33 PM

Hey people, im going to serve ns. that means you peopleare barely gonna see me. haha.
to all my brothers inside, please takecare of yourself. i hope all of you come out soon.
ah biao, ziyong, kiat and rui feng. i miss you guys.

i also wanna thank my classmated for being there for me whenever i needed them.
(= thewhole clique.
you know who you are. the boys and the girls both. dont worry.
you all sure can see me again. im not going to die. =x army only.

i wanna thank my brothers as well. alvin, sumi, sean, cm, qing and all.
thanks for spending lots of time with me before i leave.
i will definately come out to find you people whenever i get the chance to.
please dont get into trouble and takecare. (=

you takecare of yourself too. i know i wont get the chance to see you before i go in. i dont even know if ill ever see you again actually.
but its okay. at least i talked to you again. after whatever happened i never set high standards for myself. well, just in case. you know i cant take rejection. you takecare. ill be praying for you! :D




ONCE AGAIN !
POSTED BY,

THE GREAT IVAN!
takecare people. :D

handwritten @ 7:06 PM

Im still sick ! )=
Someone come save me.
Im bored at home.
My boss overseas!
COME COME !

)=

handwritten @ 9:03 PM

Don’t forget
to Remember me
I’ll be back - so remember me
Please keep me in your heart
If we have to ever part
Don’t forget me, to remember me

I don’t mean to feel like this
Don’t mean to think like this
My heart just has to be sure
That the love that I give to you
That’s the love that I get from you
I need to be safe and secure

Don’t forget
to Remember me
I’ll be back - so remember me
Please keep me in your heart
If we have to ever part
Don’t forget me, to remember me

Don’t you forget about me...


THE GREAT IVAN!

handwritten @ 1:34 AM