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Saturday, May 31, 2008

SATURDAY- went for match. wa damn scary sia. -.-
were losing all the way till last few mins catch up and won.
must thank the big guy fot booting my face. now my nose keeps bleeding. zzz.
cramped my thigh again, captain? dont want to sub me out. -.- thanks also.
but won, so very satisfied. (:
came home a happy, limping boy.
then mom dont let me go east coast zzzz.
say tmr leaving for overseas today dont go.
than ah, i also want to thanks her loh.
so i sat at home just messaged the barbarian.
haha. planned to meet her in the morning, awhile.

SUNDAY- woke up at 4.30am. then i see no missed calls or messages. i was damn hell tired.
what did i do? sleep again. then woke up at 5 plus. before 5.30.
faster took my bath and all. and took bus over to sister house there.
saw her on the wayyyy!
so we walked back and took a bus to school.
short time. but enjoyable at least.
at side gate. saw something..
u can say it's a someone.
and memories all fly come back !
zzzzzzzzzz!
hais.

does this always happen in friendship?
cant two people be friends even if one is unhappy with the other's friends?
friendship is a personal relationship with each and every person.
so why must this always affect us?
is being a featured friend in friendster or having your nickname on my msn pm more important than actaully being on talking terms?
i have my difficulties.
i have lots more of trouble.
im not saying you don't.
everyone has their problems.
but i have always been true when we were close.
or just let the lightning strike me for lying way too many times.
i made my decision.
ill treat everyone as my friend.
you want to hate me like hell or whatever.
by all means please go ahead.
if making the first move to talk was a wrong decision taken by me.
i am not going to do it.
thinking alot in the early morning of a weekend is bad,
spoils your whole weekend.
but can i help it?
i saw you at 6.50?
now it's 10 plus plus going to 11.
i have a feeling of regret and sometimes i think you deserve this. sometimes i think i deserve it.
confused is the word.
caught in the middle maybe?
this should not have happened.
but it already happened.
but by the way, your friends are being extras.
interfering in something they don't know no shit about.
cos its going to get real real real real real messy here if they continue.
lets just peacefully end what we started.
this is not a peacekeeping post from me.
cos im not scared.
i just want some peace of mind.
having many things troubling you and problems piling up. the feeling sucks big time.
thanks!
you were great during the times as well.
caring and nice.
helpful and comforting.
spent lots of moments together.
all of them, good moments.
let them live forever then.
you were a true brother* indeed.
in the past that was....

Like any other kind of love, friendship can be lost within our lives due to neglect or anger or, sometimes, simply circumstances. However it is lost, we often lose a part of ourselves that can never quite be recovered.
maybe you did not lose a part of you. i surely did.
hate to lose friends.
but whats gone is gone.

nevemind, at least i have understood that everyone is different.
and i can fall back on my brothers and sisters. as well as a couple of close friends.
too many to name people!
but you know who you are. trusted&loved!
takecare people. im going overseas today.
please be alright when im back!
love all of you. i dont hate nobody anymore.
it's not worth..

IVAN!

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