Can i press the QUIT button and QUIT life?
because i cant take it no more.
is this the way parents treat their kids?
so what if i dont get hit? i also get no love.
you think that all i want is money money money.
u dont think i need care and concern?
u think i have got no feelings?
u think i wont feel sad?
even animals do have feelings.
then why outcast me in this family?
if you both had chosen to pamper only one child each. then why give birth to me?
i dont even feel secure.
bro has mummy's support , and sis has daddy' support.
me? im on my own.
so much proof.
the birthday celebrations, the family outings.
do i even exist?
am i even considered as one in this family tree?
or am i already transparent to you?
might as well go off?
then save money and some trouble what.
im a trouble kid to you.
so why live right?
i dont like to trouble others, seriously.
hais.
i dont deserve this treatment.
pull the trigger and kill me.
im breaking down?
and who have i got here with me?
nobody.
im all alone experiencing this.
and im struggling badly.
real badly.
and i think im just going to give up.
whats the point?
im on the losing end anyways. makes no difference to pull myself up abit.
i still love you both as my parents. you just dont see it.
i know you hate me. its okay.
used to it.
im still very grateful for all that you have done for me since young to bring me up.
but why the sudden change?
i miss the past.
i fear the future
there might be no tomorrow for me anytime soon.


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IVAN (down, as low as the deepest ocean.)

handwritten @ 8:02 AM